i have 2 little friends here..
Rachel and Sherine..
actually i don really understand them,
but in my heart,
there's a voice that always console me that,
they do love me very much..haha
yes, they need me, they listen to my advise to be very careful
of course, it's worth it to share my bad xperience so that they learn..
yea, we were close, we were good friends
just like how close they are wif ai wuen and wen wei..
But, often, i'm too sensitive that
even just a stare, a murmur,
i'll start to ask myself
do they really like me?
or was i just a passer-by in their life?
the more mature one, rae,
i do love her so much.
but i cant control myself to think it by a negative way.
she'll leave me one day..
she'll follow them soon..
far far away out of my sight..
within my sight, there'll only be a word
betray
taught by the one that frequently stepping my back
ha..tat's funny..cos i knew it since the very beginning.
yea..cos they are fun..and they have a same topics,
boys? love? cosmetics?? i dont know
cos i really dislike to stick to those things
and youth would surely lured by excitement..
that's wat i cant made both of them feel nice and close..
i wan to own her, for myself, but it's sad that i cant
i don have the freedom as they do..
i cant often hang out till very late..
ya, she's like tat too, if not mistaken..
maybe being too famous in schl and undergone so much xperience
i'm not tat easy to get my heart fully inviting for both of them
we shared a little secret, but not tat much as they shared wif the 2
but tat's enough for me,
its so meaningful and so nice
as this kind of me, do not have much true friends to share things about
especially about our love our youth our teenage dream
i lost my phone, and i lost contact wif many of them
and now, when i gain one back,
i found myself dislike to sms even chatting wif ppl..
sometimes i really envy the others
cos they can always hang out wif both of them...
so nice..so close..
but i have already lost my craze to stay close wif someone i really cant agree wif
isnt it tiring? i don know actually...
to smile to those we dislike?
to stay cozy wif those we don agree?
i just cant..now..
these years had taught me to become a hypocrite
so sarcastic!
and i hate that..
i don either know that did my wish did irritate her?
or just simply went into the trash bin..?
M I TOO SENSITIVE?
OR TOO PESSIMISTIC?
but if you were to see this..
i trully hope tat both of you know
i really cared about you so much..
so much that i cant control my anxious to meet you all
and i just hope that you wouldn't change,
just for the desire to have friends..or fun..
cos even myself, in a sudden, stop mixing to those hypocrite
or maybe the whole form did that too?
being isolated now?
is tat me? or them?
i just too afraid that we don have the same thing to talk or to share now..
and so terrified that you would drown..
ya..i shouldn't talk as if i m the best..
i'm so sorry to have these feelin..
.i love to talk very much..
if you don like it...just ignore it..
it would be hurt, but i don mind if you tell me straight-forwardly
so tat i don need to waste my time, just to worry..
maybe it's too harsh for you to say so..
but i would like you to tell me,
as we are growing and learning from every person and each day
i would change, i would learn, i would reflect wat i said/ did
well, goodbye, my liitle friends..
love you 4eva..
gonna leave here very soon...
even though we cant have any great memories..
maybe someday?
someday, i would like to take you to somewhere we can have lots of things to share together,
again..when i have my own car??
^^maybe not..
cos maybe you would dislike..wakaka
tqvm rae, for scolding me out
so that i can truly let go everything
and to tell me wat thay said about me..
tqsm sherine, for accompanying me in those sad days..
and do not lost hope of our weak friendship bond..
if you believe
it will happen
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